I've never been a patient person.
Ask anyone that knows me. I usually want things to happen right away and will work hard to achieve it. I'm not good at waiting for 'x' to arrive. The sooner - the better.
But something big happened this week. My computer went down for two days. It was as if the end of the world had hit and I couldn't do anything! My to-do list was growing and I knew I had many things to accomplish. It is 2012. We are slaves to technology and when it is not right at our fingertips - we don't know how to react. (Okay...perhaps I shouldn't speak in the universal 'we' - but this is ALL me.)
But here is where things turned around.
In the past, I would have freaked out. The computer would have ended up against the wall. The stress would have eaten me alive from not being able to get to that technical 'to do'. Large amounts of food would have been consumed as stress drives me to the food pantry.
But I took a deep breath and said "there is nothing I can do about it". And like that...I was able to let it go.
What? Who am? That is not Greg - at all.
I'm not sure where that calmness came from, but I somehow realized it was out of my control and things would occur when they occurred. That small realization was actually very large - like one of those 'ah-ha' moments that Oprah talks about. (I feel like I'm having a few of those lately, so maybe patience was due.)
I'm not saying this new Greg is going to stick or that I'll handle it the same way in the next situation...but for a moment, I felt like I had grown up a little.
I should since 43 will be knocking on my door in one month.